A Penny For My Thoughts

I actually enjoy going fishing, although I won’t dare take the fish off the hook.
I’m addicted to avocados, ginger, popcorn and raisinets, the beach, resilience, The Sims, and laughter.
I laugh a lot, and no I’m not masking sadness, it’s how I kill my sadness.
I’m not afraid to say “I don’t know.”
There will be at least one person in my life, where if I disappeared, they will know what happened because they have sat even in the deepest seats of my thoughts. I can’t keep my own secrets and I don’t prefer to.
I daydream as much as an adult as I did as a child because sometimes reality sucks.
I’m kind of a hoarder, but in a Mr. Clean type of way, so you only know because I’m telling you. Contrary to my hoarding, I do so to give, and sometimes sell.
Sometimes I write stories backwards and read articles from the end to the beginning. It just works for me.
I judge books by the introduction. I don’t necessarily stop reading but I’m silently disappointed before even finishing the book…expectations.
I’ve dated a good bit but have only been in a few relationships. I’ve developed good friendships with my partners, which is probably why we are still good friends, except for one.
Sometimes I can burn your ear off with conversation but I also have an appreciation for a comfortable silence, which I’ve learned, can only be shared with people that trust you and are grateful with just your presence.
I’ve learned to observe and question with a curious mind and listen with an open heart.
Flowers are pretty, but I’d prefer chocolate covered fruit.
Working with children is my passion. “It’s easier to build strong children than it is to repair broken men”- Frederick Douglas. I love a good quote and this is one of my favorites.
Let me tell you how actually working with children is only about 30% of my work and 70% paperwork, emails and harassing other people for paperwork… Hate it.
I enjoy tuna sandwiches with jelly on the bread, fried fish and pound cake, bananas and eggs, and I can eat avocados with anything.
I can be selfish, sometimes I feel like I have to be or else I’d lose my sanity, so I won’t answer the phone… #guilty.
I would give an ex another chance but you only have one time to mess up my money. Financial security is important to me, so is love.
I always look for the light at the end of the tunnel. When I can see it, it encourages me too keep going.
I have cared for 7 foster daughters over the past 4 years. It’s never been a cake walk but I am truly grateful for what I’ve learned from them. They’ve taught me that loving someone is not about meeting your own needs. I’ve learned patience… PATIENCE.
I’m a morning person because it’s when my brain works best. I can think clearly before the day muddles my mind.
I have to sleep with socks on when I sleep alone. My feet are always cold.
Before I knew any better, I enjoyed politics. I think most of us begin with good intentions, but politicking all too often has a way of polluting the soul.
Sometimes I watch or think about something that I know will make me sad because I need a good cry. I always feel cleansed after a good cry.
One of the biggest lessons I have learned within the past year and has been so beneficial to me this year is objectivity; to see things as they are without our own mental nodes, bias, and prejudice. It has opened so many lanes of communication and learning experiences. It has also decreased my stress levels… believe it or not, my nerves are bad, and that’s why I can’t stand chaos. FIN

The Facts of Life

When I was 4, I was scared to death of the “Candyman,” so much so, I avoided staring to long in mirrors thinking he would sneak attack me.

In 1991 I was convinced I was going to be a Janet Jackson background dancer. I practiced in front of the television because I figured, if I can see them, then obviously they can see me. Yeah, I was 9…

Until I was about 12, I despised ruffled potato chips. According to my big cousin Michelle, ruffled potato chips are what caused stretch marks. Unfortunately I shared the unknowingly cruel joke with my young and very impressionable group of friends.

At 16, I thought I could choose my sexuality, so I had sex with a boy and girl, trying to judge by which felt better.

There may be some, but I don’t know anyone that walks into a genuine , committed relationship without the intent of it lasting forever. I thought my first love would be my only love…Until we broke up when I was 23, and I fell in love with another.

At the time these scenarios were my truths, except for Candyman, he still may be. Life has a way of making a liar out of you and your foolish and daffy thoughts. I don’t mind, I actually prefer it. it’s a reminder that I’m living, learning, unlearning, and relearning, and I’m grateful for that…for a limited time…lol, I kid!

“What you perceive, your observations, feelings, interpretations, are all your truth. Your truth is important, yet it is not truth.” – Linda Ellinor

#WhatILearnedAsAnAdult

So I have this social network friend named Redi W. He is the king of
#WhatILearnedAsAnAdult posts. I generally find his post relatable so I thought I’d share #WhatILearnedAsAnAdult with you guys 🙂

1) I often describe myself as being very simplistic. Life isn’t as smooth and simple as I would like it to be, and I tremendously appreciate the strength in resiliency. I have learned that making a few short-term goals and completing them over a short period makes me happier than making a long term goal and not being happy until I reach that goal later down road. My long term goal is to be happy, so by steadily maintaining fulfillment along the way, in a sense, I’m already there.

2) While we live in a capitalist society, our financial well being is placed in the hands of the highest bidder, so it is important for me to reassess my finances annually. The best financial security is being debt free, not owing anyone, so the closer I get to that point, the better off I am financially. I’m constantly looking to lower my homeowners insurance, car insurance, and looking to become more energy efficient, saving myself from having a panic attack when I open my electric bill. I’ve recently stream lined my mortgage to get a lower interest rate, which saves thousands over the life of the loan and a few extra dollars monthly.

3) I don’t ever want to be so religious that I miss the point. For me, the point being is the spiritual connection/relationship with God, and sharing the experiences and blessings across the board, not only with those who share the same faith, and without judging those that oppose it.

4) Good communication is key to any successful relationship. Everyone loves differently. If you don’t feel your love is reciprocated, it doesn’t necessarily mean that person doesn’t love you with all they have, you just may not share a similar experience of what love is. In either friendship or romantic relationship, spend time experiencing each other whole heartedly and with an open mind. Love is a subjective experience and can grow into easily complimenting others when you can understand each other.

5) Im still a kid a heart and the greatest gift I can give to myself, is being myself; changing what I don’t like and accepting what I cant change took years of practice. (Freeing your mind) Life experience is one of the best teachers and can be a great character builder. Whatever makes you happy, do it more often. Clearly if setting fires or grand theft rocks your world, this does not apply, but if someone makes you happy, see them more often. You get the point. While the only thing constant in this world is change, my motto is “its never to late to get brand new.”

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